- Mary Oliver, "The Journey"
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began...
You get to feel safe.
You get to feel joy.
You get to be fully alive.
You get to realize the peace and belonging that are your birthright.
Through this work, together, we'll explore and develop...
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Movement in the stuck places
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Freedom from patterns that aren't working
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Greater choice, flexibility, and agency
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Strong, healthy boundaries
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Joyful, connected relationships
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Greater ease navigating challenges and unknowns
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Trusting and experiencing all your emotions without overwhelm
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Clarity on your path forward
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Deep self-compassion
Sessions with me are...
gentle
normalizing
hopeful
compassionate
collaborative
adaptable
About My Approach
My coaching is based on the conviction that you were born a complete, perfect, innocent, and incredibly resourceful human being (and still are all of those things). You were born of the wisdom and abundance of nature, and carry that wisdom, abundance, and ability to heal within you.
Nature knows how to heal and thrive, and so do we.
Throughout our lives, we acquire beliefs, patterns, and ways of being that help us survive the environments in which we're raised and circumstances to which we're exposed. As we grow and our lives change and we face the challenges of adulthood, many of those beliefs, patterns, and ways of being are no longer relevant to the lives we're living and begin to get in our way.
What was once a brilliant survival strategy starts to limit our ability to thrive.
Our work in experiential coaching is to support you to reconnect with your innate wisdom, truth, and vitality by reconnecting to nature - whether that's with horses, the land, or simply your own body. Your body knows how to heal.
With your consent and at your body's own pace, I support you with the safe container and professional skillset needed for your system to reorganize, so that you can fully realize the peace, vitality, self-determination, belonging, and connection that are your birthright.
FAQs
What is Somatic Experiencing®?
Somatic Experiencing® (SE™) is a therapeutic approach and set of tools that resolves symptoms of stress, shock, and trauma that accumulate in our bodies. When we are stuck in patterns of fight, flight, or freeze, SE helps us release, recover, and become more resilient. It is based on a multidisciplinary intersection of physiology, psychology, ethology, biology, neuroscience, indigenous healing practices, and medical biophysics, is very well-researched, and has been clinically applied for more than four decades.
What is trauma?
Trauma is defined as a nervous system response to an event that overwhelmed the system’s ability to self-regulate. Trauma is not in the event; it’s a nervous system response. For this reason, trauma symptoms can arise from a variety of different events. You might hear practitioners refer to “Big-T” and “little-t” traumas, which is a way of normalizing that trauma can occur following a variety of circumstances – not only from obviously traumatic events such as war or abuse, but also seemingly benign events (e.g. a child losing sight of their parent in the mall, a routine medical procedure, losing a job, a fall, a fender bender). In the words of Dr. Peter A. Levine: “Trauma has become so commonplace that most people don’t even recognize its presence. It affects everyone. Each of us has had a traumatic experience at some time in our lives, regardless of whether it left us with an obvious case of post-traumatic stress.” “Trauma is a fact of life. It does not, however, have to be a life sentence. Not only can trauma be healed, but with appropriate guidance and support, it can be transformative. Trauma has the potential to be one of the most significant forces for psychological, social, and spiritual awakening and evolution.”
I don't have a lot of trauma. Can this work still help me?
Absolutely. What we call “trauma” is simply a nervous system response to being overwhelmed. All human beings experience overwhelm, even if we’re not aware of it, and even if the event doesn’t fall into one of the obviously traumatic categories such as war, violence, or abuse. Because of this, to varying degrees, all of us have some vitality and life energy bound up in our bodies that is preventing us from fully experiencing our lives. This can manifest in a lot of different ways, but often looks like: stress, a general lack of enthusiasm or joy, anxiety, chronic or mystery illnesses, digestive issues, feeling disconnected, an inability to relax or rest without sleep aids, overthinking, becoming easily depleted or exhausted, coping mechanisms (e.g. overdrinking, over/undereating, overworking, overspending, compulsive behavior), and/or outsized emotional responses (such as anger or sadness) that are much larger than the energy of the inciting situation – among other things. The way our symptoms manifest and the ways we cope are unique to each of us, but the underlying nervous system disorganization is not unique. Our nervous system responses are mappable, predictable, well-understood by science, and – here’s the best part – changeable! In fact, your nervous system knows how to come back into regulation and organization. It just needs a safe environment and support of a qualified professional to guide you into accessing that bound up energy in the body.
What happens in a session?
Before our first session, I will send you an intake form with questions about what brings you to coaching. That will help me have a sense of where you are now and where you’d like to go, so that I can best support you to bridge the gap. Coaching sessions often simply look and feel like deep conversations. We usually begin by talking about your goals. What is it in your life that you would like to be different? What isn't working? What kind of life calls to you but feels out of reach? We also build awareness of what IS working so we can build on your existing resourcefulness and competency. As we talk, I will invite you to notice the sensations in your body and your felt experience. And if that’s not something you feel comfortable with yet, we start with paying attention to your environment. This modality is mindfulness-based, so if you already have a mindfulness, meditation, or yoga practice, this noticing or “tracking” of thought and sensation will be very familiar. As we progress, we might explore slow and gentle movement in the body and bring in imagination and meditation to the conversations. This supports the body in the "completion" and reorganization that is central to trauma resolution.
Are sessions in person or virtual?
Sessions can be conducted in person or virtually via Zoom.
How is this different from talk therapy?
Coaching is more collaborative than traditional talk therapy. In coaching, we can discuss ideas and strategies together, openly co-creating a plan and exploring what does and doesn’t work for you. Somatic Experiencing® invites awareness and exploration of the full range of our experience – thoughts, feelings, behavior, AND bodily sensations and sensory impressions and memory. In talk therapy, you typically only focus on thoughts, feelings, and behavior. While traditional talk therapy (such as CBT and DBT) can be incredibly supportive and useful in a variety of ways, it simply cannot resolve the physiological effects of trauma, because you must also work with the body’s needs in order to support the nervous system to come back into regulation. Through tools (some that come from traditional talk therapy, some from SE), collaboration, curiosity, and spaciousness, we’ll learn the unique pattern of your nervous system and how it can best thrive in its full vitality and aliveness.
My Story
After a childhood and adolescence marked by overwhelming and painful experiences, I spent much of my young adulthood thinking there was something wrong with me – that I was irrevocably broken.
I had the dream of a more fulfilling life out there somewhere, but I had no idea how to get to it.
The untended cumulative trauma within my body manifested as getting sick with mystery illnesses, eating disorders, erratic moods, anxiety, and depression. As a young adult, the only way I knew to cope with all of this was to remain emotionally isolated, in and out of unfulfilling relationships, and focus heavily on work. Subconsciously, I couldn’t completely trust anyone, feeling like I could only depend on myself.
I would self-soothe (as we all do at times) with things like working to the point of exhaustion, overeating, under-eating, over-exercising, overspending, too much social media, and even an obsessive approach to “self-help.” I read tons of self-help books, and pursued quick fix promises of “perfect” personal growth.
Intellectually I “knew better,” but there was still a part of me that felt like "doing fine" was the most I could ask for (or even that what happened to me was my fault)... And if I could just be better, work harder, find the “right” path, the “right” solution, then I’d finally arrive into a peaceful, happy life. But it never worked.
To varying degrees of severity, this cycle is all too familiar for most of us. And if I could go back in time to my younger self, I’d tell her:
There is nothing wrong with you.
It’s not your fault.
You get to feel better than "fine."
You will find the safety and peace you’re looking for.
I’d show her my life today – the beautiful, healthy relationships, my loving and supportive partner, and the deep stability and peacefulness I feel. I’d show her how well I sleep at night, how I’m able to play and celebrate, and have a healthy connection to work and play. How I navigate grief and challenge with so much self-compassion.
I’d reassure her that she survived, and that eventually she found supportive coaches and community. That after years of searching, Equus Coaching and Somatic Experiencing made healing and thriving WAY easier and more gentle than she thought it would be.
I believe that if everyone had the safety and support to fully claim and express the whole of who they are – including every part we see as “bad” – every fear, every judgment, every wound – that we’d have a different world. I have seen firsthand in my own life and in the lives of countless others that this work leads to previously unimaginable peace, joy, connection, clarity, and efficacy.
I wish to give everyone the gift of coming home to yourself. That’s when we really can feel and know that we belong and are loved.
When I say coming home to yourself,
this is what it feels like to me....
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Riding a horse at a full gallop across an open field, arms stretched wide
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Dancing in warm rain
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Laughing so hard I cry
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Loving, joyful relationships
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Falling in love again – with life, with myself, with others
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Knowing intrinsically that I belong on this earth and that I am lovable – without needing to change
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Being able to be with my anger, despair, and grief without reaching for go-to coping mechanisms to numb out
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Knowing I’m equal to whatever life brings
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Confidence in my own being
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Curiosity and openness – this too, belongs